Today is my second wedding anniversary. Last year we celebrated our anniversary in Seattle. This year we’d been planning on another anniversary trip, but…well, you know how that story ends.
This is a Studio MME kit (she’s since rebranded as Poplush Embroidery and has retired her skylines/landscapes kits.) I purchased this kit from the Elliot Bay Book Company while on our trip. I finished most of the kit last year, but then set it down as I was stitching the windows. I picked it up recently and decided to finish it for my anniversary. It probably took another 30 minutes to finish stitching the windows. Isn’t it funny how we set aside WIPs when they’re so close to being finished?
We had a lot of plans this year that we’re now having to postpone indefinitely. I mean, we’re all in that same situation. I find a lot of solidarity in that. I got hit with the travel bug back in 2014, and as my anxiety management improved, that desire only increased. I am so fortunate to have been able to visit the places that I have, because travel truly is a privilege. But there are so many other places that I want to go, and I feel behind in that respect (Instagram gives me FOMO, and I’m sure that’s where a lot of it comes from). I was worried that some the plans I had for this year would give me less time. And now, the irony is I have ALL the time that I would want…but nowhere to go.
I have to remind myself that as long as I have my health (which is hopefully for a long time) and as long as I have a job, I’ll be able to travel again one day when life returns to normal.
Work has been really stressful on top of that – I am managing a project that gives me heartburn and there has been a lot of self-loathing. I know this too shall pass and I need to be kinder to myself. But I am very hard on myself for mistakes. Our hours are also being cut to 36 hours a week. If we’re 100% billable, we can charge the full 40 hours (which many of us, including myself, are not), but otherwise, our hours will be cut by 10%. For someone who was hired right before the recession, I thought I knew what to expect in these general situations. During the recession, small groups of people in each office had their hours temporarily cut back if they weren’t billable. But these measures are being implemented for all exempt employees nationwide. This is unprecedented, at least in my twelve years of experience with this company, and even during the worst of the recession, so…I’m a little concerned. But again, I still have a job, I’m still getting paid, and I can work from home. I’m very lucky.
It’s also hard not to be homesick and nostalgic at a time like this, wishing for the comforts of home, of family, and friends. I was on a video chat with my Austin coworkers Friday night. I was floored by how sad I felt afterward, especially since I thought that seeing their faces would cheer me up. It just reminded me of everything we left behind. But Husband said something this morning that I think was really profound…that in uncertain times like these, when we don’t have anything to necessarily look forward to, we turn inward and go backwards.
I know that you all are dealing with the same worries that we are, and I find some much comfort knowing that we’re not alone in this. It can be so much worse in so many ways and I never forget that…but sometimes you just need to “feel the feels.” I’ve had to work these past two weekends, and this weekend I think I finally had more time to process everything…so I’m feeling it.
Thanks for listening. I send you all hugs and warmth.
Categories: Crafting From My Stash, Crafty Travels, Current Events, Embroidery, Quarantine Crafts
Jenny, happy anniversary! Talk about looking back. I am so glad I was able to attend that absolutely perfect wedding…sending love – Grandma Pat
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I’m so happy that you all were able to share that day with us, Grandma Pat! Huge hugs!!
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Happy anniversary! Hopefully you can make your plans and dreams come true next year, and meanwhile, all the best and many happy years together to you and your husband.
Stay strong and rant if you need it, I’m sure everyone understands.
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Thank you so much 🙂 We had a very nice anniversary with some good wine (whine? 🙂 ) and pizza!
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I am always here to listen! I never know what will trigger tears these days. I understand everything you are going through. I am very distracted and I find it difficult to concentrate. We will get through this and you will see that Sky Needle again!! Anniversary blessings. And lots of hugs!! xoxo Regina
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Thank you so much! Sending you big hugs! It’s so hard to focus these days. But knowing that we’re all in this together brings a lot of comfort! ❤
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Happy Anniversary! And I think that we are all processing a certain amount of grief in different ways and at different times. It’s only expected. Be kind to yourself and be well!
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Thank you so much! ❤ It comes in waves for sure. Today is a good day though! The sunshine definitely helps 🙂 Hope you are having a sunny day as well.
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Happy anniversary!
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Thank you! 🙂
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Happy Anniversary! You’ll have to go somewhere extra amazing next year to make up for this awfulness.
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Thank you! 🙂 I’m dying to go overseas! Husband just needs to get his passport lol.
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Happy anniversary. Lovely embroidery ❤
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Thank you so much ❤
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I hear you, Jenny.
There’s so many changes around here and in my routine as well, taking one moment at a time xx
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Thank you Ellie ❤ it's not easy to do, but you're right that taking one moment at a time is the best way to move forward. And feels less overwhelming for sure!
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